My hope is built on nothingless

Well god jul, merry christmas, feliz navidad or however you say it wherever you are. Yesterday we went to a meal setup by the church for poeple who dont have family are alone on christmas. It was really nice, they had alot of good food and after we ate and sat around and talked we sang and danced around the tree ( alot of fun!). Then before we left came santa! with a raindeer! who left us a messy present on the floor hahaha! so that was pretty interesting. Then after that we went to a friends house whos family had invited us over cause they knew we were alone. It was one of the most touching things some has done for me. They truly treated us like family. For some reason i can never sleep on christmas night so i slept for about an hour then i woke up. I made a fire and just sat and relaxed then tried to go back to sleep. This morning we opened presents around eight. Well i pray that god will give me courage to carry on. OH! merry christmas lewie and family! im so happy you found my blog!
well god bless,
-Samuel J. Miller

Im your man

So here i am, again, writing, again. Well we are now on our christmas break. I never thought i would say the word christmas and hold back a tear but its true. Being away from home sucks, im not going to sugar coat it, it just does but we get by i guess. I think cabin fever has become a concern for the team. You know there are some days where i wake up look in the mirror and ask myself why in the hell did i do this then i cant help but laugh because how insane am i to take a year outa my life to go to some place i ve never been before and do something i have no experiance in but i guess that fits me the more i think about it. I never really knew what the heck i was doing half the time i was back home. i guess i just like a good adventure and this is falls under that category. I dont know what to write here but for those who read my blog back home and dont comment on here it would be nice to get emails or something. Jer. 29:11 "for i know the plans i have for you ´declares the lord´ plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans for a hope and futuré".
In patience,
-Samuel J. Miller

On the 309

Well it has been a very interesting week to say the least. We went raindear seperating, raindear are not that big but they dont like to be grabbed by the antlers and they put up a heck of a good fight when you do. But how many people in there life time can say they helped seperate raindear in the artic circle? and in - 16 degree weather i might add. Everyone was just so happy and relaxed. everyone seemed to know each other and had no problem with including us, i found it rather touching. So that was wed. i spent the next day in band practice till friday in the morning we actually had the dance. it was alot of fun, the rules are if someone asks you to dance you cant say no and you have to dance for the entire song. It was really funny to watch the teachers grabbed the really shy boys in the back and dance but everyone really seemed to enjoy themselves, it was a day well spent. Then the day started to go down hill fast. We opened grottan and we didnt think really anyone would come because the 9th graders were doing the lucia show agian that night from 8 to 9 and at first i was right till they started pouring in. We were packed in there and kids just reeked of alchohol. After a while i poked my head into the back room to check in and make sure everything was ok and the minute i opened the door the rushing smell of beer hit me in the face. I walked in and one of the kids playing pool who we know from östra walks over and says sam! try swedish beer. at this point im and truly pissed off. I take it when he hands it to me and i tell him that he cant drink at grottan and i walked to the back door and procceded to poor the dang stuff out. when i got back in i found alyssa trying to get a kid out who was so drunk he couldnt stand nor really speak and the kid i took the beer from was fighting with another kid. So i ran and got Elis (AKA the swedish hulk) and he grabbed them and pulled them all outside. Well the one kid wasnt happy about that and while going up the stairs out side he kicks a window and breaks it. Some other people walked the group home and i was happy to be rid of them. It was a rather depressing end to a depressing day. Saturday morning i went lifting with my friends markus and richard then we stopped at the bakery\ coffee shop in town and just talked. it was one of the most content feelings i ve had since i been here. just hanging out with friends talking and eating. Just relaxing and having fun. Well im tired of writing and this is really long so for those who read this stay safe and your always in my prayers.
Sincerly,
-Samuel J. Miller

All things bright and beautiful

With our amount of sunlight becoming less and less i find it takes an emotional blow. Not really in a negative way but more it moves in more highs and lows then usual. I more then ever find myself driffting off into memories that i havent thought about since they themselves occured. They tend to flood my mind and stop me dead until afterwards waking from my day dream to find i had spaced out. I recall waking up early with my dad to go roofing, or the bird cage they had in the nursing home my grandma miller was in. They come back to me in bright, beautiful color that even now brings me close to tears not out of sorrow but of joy of rememberance of days gone by. It is evident to me now that my family and friends forever live in the deepest parts of my heart, and that shall never be changed. After this journey is over ill get down on my knees and thank god for the adventure.
Sincerly,
Samuel j. Miller